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Future-Client304

Not me. My magical thinking is basically felling future. I got also sometime dreams of what will happen the very next day. And my inner world is based on self-dialogue.


mycircularinsanity

I definitely understand this as well. Thank you for your reply.


DarkmatterHypernovae

Yes, I experience all of this the way that you described. For me, these are the less intense aspects. It’s a very ‘normal’/‘average’ feeling. Social anxiety rears it’s ugly head in public. It’s always noticeable in my speech, even when I’m a comfortable place, my speech will become disorganized. I can speak backward sentences correctly, but I can’t plan it - it’s all organic and I can’t stop it. That’s probably the worst part - the speech. I’m very self-conscious about it because I get the obvious looks, questions, asking me to repeat, then shaking their head in confusion, etc. I see this with my kids teachers and just anyone I interact with. Typing/texting is my absolute preferred method of communicating. I can easily convey my thoughts and ideas through text, even in person, I do not speak the way I type. I think it, but my therapist and psychiatrist mentioned there’s a “disconnect” between my brain and my mouth. For some reason, I speak in a manner that doesn’t indicate my true IQ, and it causes me issues dealing with people. I hate this whole speech issue, lol. Oh, and I have a customer service voice for all phone calls. Funnily enough, my dad, aunt, and husband have asked me numerous times to settle their phone calls. Anyway, I get the sense that I’m rambling, but do know that I understand and can relate to you. Furthermore, I have one best friend of 13 years. Edit to add about the speech: Again, I mention my anxiety associated with it. The other day, my dad says to me in frustration that he simply can’t understand me when “you talk sometimes”. This hurt my feelings quite a bit, because I was already self-conscious about this, and any one in town I interacted with had issues understanding me.


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Hey there. 1. Feeling as if being watched is an every day symptom for me. Sometimes I look behind me just to see that there's nothing there. Or I sense some ominous presence. 2. I may also fear being assaulted, in spite of being a fully grown man. I'm not the smallest guy either, but these fears of assaults are based on hmm... let's say people I've gotten to know and got on their bad side? Though most people just move on and don't continue screwing around for years on end. 3. I've never been a part of any alien or occult themed group, that tries to contact aliens, spirits or demons. I find it's best not to involve yourself with potential supernatural. I've heard 1 person saying managing to contact some kind of a demonic force. While it might've been bs, this person not wanting to talk about it was an indication for me that is was something serious. 4. Like a lot of schizotypals, I also talk a lot on my own, sometimes realizing it, sometimes too probably too nuts to realize what I'm doing, and so I just forget about it. There's other stuff too, but I can relate.


xyucpaka

Comic artist here - my characters take such a gigantic space in my life that I cannot distinguish their opinions and views from mine, constantly have dialogues with them and sometimes forget completely that I am their creator and they (probably) don’t even exist. Sometimes they become the entire core of my existence.


xyucpaka

Also, that thing with connecting to the thing you’re interested in is strangely relatable. Every time I hyperdixate on my instruments, I feel as though I’m connected to the history of bass playing, might be the reincarnation of some particular bassist, or can manipulate air to create sounds. That whole thing lead me to the path of spirituality and witchcraft, so here we are, I guess.


mental_mooncake

Your comics are probably super cool


PandaQueen98

I found out today that I can go to reddit with my STPD. I can, 100%, relate to feeling watched all the time. Sometimes i have days where my mind imagines who could actually be watching me. Sometimes i feel like I'm being followed. This tends to however feel me with a very negative output because i also overthink a lot so sometimes when I believe that a certain person is watching me.. depending on who the person is, i start to overthink. For me a positive is when I am listening to music because then i block everything out. I also tend to see people or things that aren't really there so i would always have to double check. It has happened so often that my brain started to filter out everything when listening to music. So I wouldn't recognize anyone that i know in the streets or whenever they call my name. So people would physically have to touch me for me to notice them.


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mycircularinsanity

Please don’t delete. This means a lot to me. Thanks so much.


mental_mooncake

Hey you can screenshot it or copy text. No problem ♡